Control

Ever since I was little control has been something I have become accustomed to...

I would wake up every morning, and for the most part I knew what the day would hold for me. I would walk to the fridge and look at each list....

Chore list - check

Menu - check

And believe me, if anything on the lists changed, it most likely wouldn't be done, or even noticed. (just ask my parents ha!)

I liked the habitual state I was in. For me, it's comforting to wake up and face the day knowing what's in store. I am the type of person who detests change. I am not good with change.

But God, God has an extreme sense of humor. It seems every time there is change in my life, it is not just one thing, it is the mother load. My family always jokes that when God changes things, he tends to change everything for us, and usually it comes quickly and with seemingly no warning.

And once again... I am in a period of change...

School

Friends 

Church

College

Health

As the saying goes... when it rains, it pours... and its pouring over here... 

Let's face it, as humans, we ALL want control of some sorts. Whether it be our circumstances or even just ourselves. I guess God's reminding me of a lesson I'll never stop learning... God is in control.

Psalm 55: 22 

Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

He tells us to give it up to him, because only through him can we be sustained. So here I am.. once again Lord, surrendering control to you.....